9 posts tagged “sheryl”

Forgive me while I digress with some personal thoughts for a moment.

Have you ever been in love? I don't just mean loved someone. I mean been so totally in love that nothing else in the world mattered? If you haven't, you can't imagine the feeling. It's the most powerful feeling there is.

I'm in love with Sheryl. Our relationship is very public, and anyone who reads here can see much of our life together. I love her beyond anything I will ever be able to express. She's my universe. my sun rises and sets in her. Without her there would be no stars, no music, no sunshine. Without her, the universe would simply be a black hole.

We came together as adults, with a lot of history prior to each other. My history isn't all good. I've not always been a good, honest and loving man. Now that past is dead to me. The things I did before are gone. I can never be that man again. Yet, the past haunts us forever, doesn't it. Sometimes I don't respect that the way I should.

Sheryl has spoiled me for all other women because there can never be another for me. I know that sounds like a bold statement, but it's true. If she were not my partner, my mate, my love, I would simply stop breathing. My heart would stop. And I wouldn't care. There is no other who could ever take her place. Ever.

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To me, Sheryl is a goddess beyond words. I adore and worship her. Look at that picture and see what I see. The most amazing, intelligent, loving woman in the world. She is the only woman on earth. She is my everything. I would do anything to make her happy and please her. I want her to be delighted every day in our life together.

Yet I fail. Often. I fail because I can't find enough ways to express my love. She knows I love her. But I always want to show more. I need to show more.

I just needed to say that.

Sheryl and I returned late last night from a 2-day, 940 mile road trip. We'll post about that as we get a chance to process our video, pictures and audio. This is about something else. It's about learning. Realizations and epiphanies.

Talking wit our good friend Jeff on the trip, and talking with Sheryl during lots of miles in the car, I'm re-experiencing an awakening. Something that's hit me before. And I've often said the words. Said them often, lived them sometimes, but not always.

Sometimes I get hit between the eyes with the realization of just how powerful love is. And when I notice how easy it can be to let life intervene, it makes me think. Old habits, routines built through our lives, and general chaos slips into our lives. Wheb we let this happen, we quit focusing on what really matters most.

I found a new refocusing on what matters most to me. Sheryl. I've got a full time job. I've got outside projects, mostly writing. I've got a lifetime of old habits and behaviors, many of which I don't like. They're a detriment to life today and the future. Things I must unlearn and leave behind. There are things in the world that, if allowed, can divert my attention from the single most important thing in my life - being present, in the moment, in every moment, with Sheryl.

So I made a resolution to myself during the wee small hours of the morning when my stomach was hurting and my brain wouldn't let me get back to sleep.

I will forever on, seize each moment of my life, each day, each hour, each minute, focused on Sheryl and our life and future together. She is the most important person in the universe. Her love for me is a precious gift, and one I cannot and will not squander, disrespect or lose sight of.

I must forever live each day and every moment as if it were my last. It could be, although I'm not going to dwell on that. But I will seize the day, seize the moment, and seize the woman I love as if it were. My love knows no bounds, and I'm reinventing/rediscovering me along the way with Sheryl. Every day I love her more. Every day I treasure her love for me more. Every day I learn from her. Every day, I realize again what a wondrous and precious gift the love of this incredible woman is. It's a gift to be cherished, nurtured and protected with every fiber of my being,

Sheryl,

I love you in ways I never dreamed I could love. My love for you is so powerful and strong. It grows daily as you continue in so many ways to make me heart race and take my breath away. You are the most incredible and amazing woman God ever put on this earth. And I know in my soul that my reason for existence is to love you with all I am for all time.

By now, everyone should know full well that Sheryl and I are more than business partners. We're life partners living together as well.

We live much of our lives in pretty open view. Between Twitter, Jaiku, Seesmic, QIK, our GeekSpeakTV, Facebook, here on VOX and all the other social media tools we use, people have a pretty fair insight into our life events. We don't hide our relationship or our love for one another.

At the VON.x conference in San Jose earlier this week, we shared the most momentous event of our life together. Many readers and friends have seen, but since it was live on stage at VON, and live streamed on the Internet. Now it's here on VOX too.

Here's one of the videos that was streamed live on the Internet.

Here's Sheryl's smile afterward. Oh, she said yes!

Sheryl's Smile after saying yes

I've been on a path to truth and discovery for several months now. I started this journey back onto the way of being true to myself and others before I knew I was there.

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My life has been and continues to be a journey. I've been stumbling my way onto a path from which I've long been astray. I expect I'll find challenges keeping myself on the path, but I am hopeful, optimistic and determined. I've found commitment I never had before. Something internal that's driving me in a way that is new to me.

The Road goes ever on and on

Down from the door where it began.

Now far ahead the Road has gone,

And I must follow, if I can,

Pursuing it with eager feet,

Until it joins some larger way

Where many paths and errands meet.

And whither then? I cannot say.

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The last several months have been a time of dramatic change in my life. There have been many things I haven't talked about openly and some that I have. I know it's left some people wondering where I am and what I'm doing. There's been a fair amount of stress and strain, and a number of personal issues I've struggled with. Some of them are things I'll struggle with for a long time to come.

I'm finding my way to a path I've long been astray from. I met Sheryl and something magical grew between us. Today, we're exploring life together. New media, social networking tools and mobile solutions have really captured our attention and we've had the good fortune to be able to use many exciting new tools. We've also been making lots of new friends together. Some online and through technology, but we've also met winemakers and folks who own some restaurants and new friends as a result of those deiscoveries. We're not through all the trials we share, but we actively work together every day to build our life ahead.

This amazing woman I love and share my life with posted a gift she'd given me a while ago here yesterday. She amazes me every day. Sheryl's a miraculous treasure in my life for which I will be ever thankful.

My voice cannot compare to hers. It isn't even close. But I dabble with my guitar from time to time.

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I've never written a song. One day that will come. But for now, for this Valentines Day, I'm going to post something I made for her. I was going to send it to her alone, but how I feel about Sheryl is pretty common knowledge these days. It isn't something I hide. It isn't something I intend to ever hide.

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Ken

This is for you Sheryl. You are truly awesome my love.

Just because I love this arrangement and Andrea Bocelli's voice.

01 - Puccini_ Turandot - Nessun Dorma

Andrea Bocelli

Sting - Until Lyrics

Here in your arms where the world is impossibly still
With a million dreams to fulfill
And a matter of moments until the dancing ends
Here in your arms when everything seems to be clear
Not a solitary thing would I fear
Except when this moment comes near the dancing's end

If I caught the world in an hourglass
Saddled up the moon so we could ride
Until the stars grew dim, Until...

One day you'll meet a stranger
And all the noise is silenced in the room
You'll feel that you're close to some mystery
In the moonlight and everything shatters
You feel as if you've known her all your life
The world's oldest lesson in history

Here in your arms where the world is impossibly still
With a million dreams to fulfill
And a matter of moments until the dancing ends
Here in your arms when everything seems to be clear
Not a solitary thing do I fear
Except when this moment comes near the dancing's end

Oh, if I caught the world in an hourglass
Saddled up the moon and we would ride
Until the stars grew dim
Until the time that time stands still, Until...

I can't find an MP3. Don't have this one burned to upload audio, but the lyrics say what matters. I am so glad you (Sheryl) came into my life!

I lost at love before
Got mad and closed the door
But your sun shined just once more

I chose you for the one
Now we're having so much fun
You treated me so kind
I'm about to lose my mind
You made me so very happy
I'm so glad you came into my life

The others were untrue
But when it came to loving you
I'd spend my whole life through

'Cause you came and you took control
You touch my very soul
You always showed me that
Loving you is where it's at
You made me so very happy
I'm so glad you came into my life

Thank you baby!

I love so much you see
You're even in my dreams
I can hear you, I can hear you callin' me
I'm so much in love with you
All I ever want to do is
Thank you baby, thank you baby

You make me so very happy
I'm so glad you came into my life
You made me so very happy
You made me so very happy, baby
I'm so glad you came
Into my life

I want to thank you boy
Thank you baby

We're still looking for that one special song that will be "our song" but we share many special songs between us now. This is just one because you, my sweet love, are my stardust melody. Now and forever.

Stardust

Various Artists